I’ve given it a lot of thought and decided that for a wee while I’m going to step back from all business-related activity to give me time to assess what my next move is going to be, both from a personal and professional standing.
Lately I’ve become slightly disenchanted with photography, to the point where picking up a camera is more of a chore, something done with business promotion in mind. I want to enjoy photography for a while without needing to consider whether or not it will serve any other purpose. Talking of business related activities, I’m slowly putting together another idea that will hopefully utilise some of my other qualifications and to an extent will tie in with photography, so I guess you can ‘watch this space’ and see what happens. My business plan has somewhat evolved lately anyway, I started out wanting to dip my toe in all aspects, now I’m not so interested in certain aspects, hence weddings being removed from the services offered. Don’t worry, all existing bookings will be honoured people!
But it’s not only from a professional stand-point, or a photography one. It’s also a personal one. Those that know me will be aware that the last few years haven’t been particularly easy, the death of my brother which permanently ended things with us on a sour note for us still weighs somewhat heavily over me, then the death of my mum, which was sudden, though expected. I haven’t really had a proper chance to grieve, at least not properly. It was basically straight back to work, straight back to family life and the circus-like balancing of the two. Add all that to my constant battle with Bipolar Disorder and my own wee health issues which has further evaporated my enthusiasm towards actually doing any work at all. Especially seeing as how I really got into photography because it was a way of helping me deal with the Bipolar. Having something to concentrate on that detracted my attention from the shit reality of things was a nice activity to have, and to an extent it feels as though business-stuff has – in a way – stolen that from me. I was actually quite reliant on it to cheer me up, especially as I don’t have many friends. I’m accepting applications for a new drinking buddy, he or she must own an xbox and other interests, use the contact form if you are interested in the role!
I’m also spending far too much time sat on the worlds most uncomfortable chair, in front of a computer that wants to spend most of it’s time being a dick, I need a break from that too to do more stuff with the family and actually binning some of this beer belly.
So yeah, I’m taking a ‘sabbatical’ (or at least that’s what we’ll call it for now) I’m going to spend less time on this computer, more time enjoying photography and actually blogging a bit about all manner of random crap. Especially as people actually seem to read all my nonsense, which is nice! If I can at least raise one smile from one person then I guess I’ve achieved something. I will get back to doing this photography stuff for money, with something extra too. It certainly won’t be within a few weeks though, a couple of months perhaps…maybe I’ll do a few freebies to keep me interested. Who knows! In the meantime, feel free to continue to follow me on Facebook and Instagram, where I’ll still post regularly.
Also, here’s a photo of some badgers that I stole from Google.